More than switching up roles

March 21, 2007 at 8:26 am (dance, language, learning to listen, media analysis, popular culture, relationship work, responsibility)

Check it out, new Ciarra! And really, when was the last time I saw a commercially distributed music video featuring 11 women perfoming in drag, to a song based in questioning the validity of so-called “normal” gender roles? I like Ciaras music and I especially like this new video “Like A Boy”. The beat is right, shes an incredible dancer, and it’s refreshing considering what kind of discussions about gender you are sure to find in tv, newpapers, glossy magazines and other big-media.

The most repeated chorus line of the song is: “What, you mad? Can’t handle that?

Maybe this question “normally” would be interpreted as:

You are not man enough (= not masculine enough) to handle this…?”

But in the context of the song, more likely (as I imagine) the phrase could mean:

What, you are angry because you don’t want to hear that I’m angry and fed up (with your behavior, with these tired old gender roles), but instead you emotionally withdraw by claiming to not be able to handle this…?

Or it’s possible that Ciara is asking even more specifically:

What, you can’t handle (owning and expressing your anger, being accountable to me, communicating openly and honesty, facing your own bullshit, doing your own emotional work, etc etc)…?”

Any other interpretations?

Check out the lyrics here.


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Four years since US invasion in Iraq: Without a single moment for cause of celebrating anything

March 20, 2007 at 8:58 am (business as usual, connections, irak, responsibility, united states)

Fracaso monumental contra la humanidad: Cuatro años de EEUU en Irak:

Tenderly I imagine from many hearts there in my country, and to those many hearts in Irak:

In my country, the US, the States, maybe there are many of us not yet 100% in the cacoon of our own disconnected spinnings: A silent requiem that eats away at our being and our sense, that destroys savagely our reference point to any hope of achieving that long-lost sensation near our own general wellbeing. Questions gnaw us from the inside: “How are we* so broken apart and passive, How is it that we are surrendered and placid in the business-as-usual face of such tremendous violence? By family members and by tax dollars, this militarization is something I am directly connected to: Yet what is even said by those so-distant-from witnessing, and yet so-close-to the funding of such imense saddness?

For me, first a long apology through prayer (ceremony) and there putting a lot of effort and breathing to imagine the wellbeing for the Iraki people. Later a ceremony for myself and people I know who have a direct connection to this war, and for all of this land under heavy boots, to imagine with all my heart a widespread sense of peace,and later praying that we never abandon remembering that there is the responsibility for what we know.

I give a delicate and light cleanse for what weighs on me, and pray for reaching the health of learning how to carry this. Then finally a little celebration for the strength and courage deep down for being who I am, and I sing this for myself to my heart.

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Incertidumbre entre ambulantes sobre su destino

March 19, 2007 at 5:06 pm (economy, government operations, mexico)


Persiste incertidumbre entre ambulantes sobre su destino

En calles del Centro: contrabando, mercancía robada y hasta polleros

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¿Como empieces a contar la historia tuya del auto-sabotaje?

March 19, 2007 at 5:53 am (learning to listen, taking care of yr heart)

No fue repentinamente:

Me encuentro

Que doy valor a las ideas mias que no vale tanto.

Algunas veces me dijo: “Te ciegas a las cosas más bonitas que lleves

Y recuerdo.

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Going a little farther beyond What Already Is?

March 18, 2007 at 7:42 am (kids, relationship work, taking care of yr heart)

There is a lot still to say about healthy communication,

And about no longer hiding the feeling behind getting mad.

Yeah? Are you loving bigger for You and…?

Or Is it old us weighing ourselves down

Carrying on,

Old patterns then?

Thankfully it Is Children

Who know the most,

And they

Keep on growing up imagining worlds

Far beyond what already


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How hard is relationship work ? / Not taking care of your heart

March 18, 2007 at 6:35 am (abstracting, disconnecting, learning to listen, relationship work, taking care of yr heart)

Again and again through my actions I am subject to reminding myself: How hard is relationship work, or whAT?? How many *stuck* roles do I stay myself in all small and quiet? How often is authenticity blocked by old forgotten but learned doubt and disconnection? What are those tiny limits I have gotten used to keeping myself in?

Yeah I am always amazed about how many assumptions I make in my relationship with my partner Nenil* (psuedonym). There is somewhere in me an old and heavy and somehow still seductive tendency to invent a story in place of actual listening.

There has been a lot of work for me lately about my 20+years of disconnecting into abstractions, and I am really just starting to catch on to a pattern of noticing this, as it would sometimes seem that I detach from what is going on in front of my face, who knows really, maybe hundreds of times through the day (on a bad day).

Here’s what has become painfully obvious to me through the last month of accepting the malaise and distraction of February instead of resisting it:

Nothing really works out or means too much of anything if you’re not taking care of your own heart.


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Abstraction abstraction abstraction detach

March 18, 2007 at 6:12 am (abstracting, disconnecting)

Life …ends up being mostly unexplainable? …comes up breathtaking? ….arrives stunning and vividly spectacular? …cascades from important details? …is painful and heart wrenching? …goes most easily neglected right in front of my face? ..moves too fast? …requires a lot of work? …gets all tangled up dealing with inner (and outer) obstacles? …is precious and all arrives only to this moment? …keeps unfolding through new feelings into complex situations? …mostly confuses me…? …Is explained through a lot of abstractions? …Carries frozen unfaced trauma upon each moment, solidified, goes unseen, I detach?

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Who fixes the price of white corn in Mexico? Talking about food justice, ethanol efficiency, corn subsidy, tortilla scams and the Invisible Hand

March 12, 2007 at 2:54 am (agriculture, corn subsidy, farmers, food security, media analysis, mexico, neo-liberalism, united states)

FIRST, just to make it clear:
I am not an academic nor scholar. Neither do I work nor am I trained as a media nor trade nor agriculture analyst. Much less, I am not a so called expert on anything. I am not an economist, nor do I have any particularly profound insight into free trade policies, except more of the same than what is available after a little shrewd investigation through the capacity to search and filter relevant information out of the internet, and that with being able to read and imagine with some sort of cultivated compassion for circumstances that perhaps I am barely able to imagine or comprehend. (1)

The search of my scope: Connect a few ideas, relate abstract ideas to real life experiences, and to look for transparency surrounding the unrepenting scurry of those invisible hands (spooky) The search for transparency in this study is in relation to holding food industry and government accountable for the impact and severity of harmful decisions, policy, intent and actions (2). You don’t need an expert to be able to form some basic and timely questions regarding the “unseen”(3) or “unreported”(4) aspects of how certain trade policies are written and carried out , as in this case, how it relates to corn subsidy and big agriculture welfare (5) in the United States.

This is my own study based in the education about where our food comes from, and it is rooted in a learning of justice for people and the unalienable human rights for land (6), the right to work with dignity, and the rights to sustainable, autonomous and localized food security (7)

So I want to make these questions bigger: What are people doing about this? (food insecurity ! !) (8) Who is working for food justice and where? (9) How can we support them or participate ourselves? (10) What do we know about feeding cities through urban agriculture? (11) How can we find out and share the education about where our food comes from? (12) How is it possible to improve the relationship to the food we eat? (13)

And to the praxis of practice developing through reading about all this, taking into account what we read by making this food philosophy into some kind of growable and edible anti-filosofy: Perhaps these are bigger questions to reflect upon before deciding exactly how it is at all possible to take into perspective our step by step to daily living. How are we responsible for what we know?(*)

I am also looking for detailed investigation over policy furthering the development, use and dependency of transgenic seeds, both in Mexico and in the United States. (14) I am also seeking information and research looking into the effects on our health from consuming industrialized (or genetically modified) corn products (or any other processed bio-mass), (15) How and why is corn subsidized in the United States? What is the corn used for? In what “daily” “food” products is corn-something a mostly “unknown” ingredient? Corn sweetener, corn syryps, corn starch, etc. What are the implications of this diet to our health? (This has been the most difficult kind of info for me to find, any help on this aspect of corn subsidies is extremely valuable.) I’m especially interested in this because it seems like building point where folks are motivated to leave behind processed foods, for the sake of their own diets. (check out and read up on a cornflakes-rat experiment, in an article by Sally Fallon at the Weston A. Price Foundation for Wise Foods.)

Among armchair internet investigation and such readings, I have also yet, after two months of semi-persistent query, have not been able to find any satisfying answers to the questions: How is it that the price of white corn in Mexico isindexedto the international price of yellow corn? And: Who or which companies (or concealed policy groups) are the entities that are responsible for writing and carrying out these reckless policies?

The questions I ask are sincere and should not be interpreted as rhetorical, self-assured, nor cynical. This is nothing more than my questions intertwined into blogging technology, and I want to make them into an invitation to others to send or share experiences, ideas, wisdom, investigation, analysis, links to reading, and other nods in the right direction, or any nod in other as curious directions.


Do you enjoy perusing the real fake news? From the temporary annals of todays yahoo finance… Biofuels Boom Raises Tough Questions

a handful of yellow corn before it is processed at the Tall Corn Ethanol plant in Coon Rapids, Iowa, May 24th, 2006

So coming in today over the the AP wires, Matt Crenson brings us a report on the bio-fuel boom, which is the demand for yellow corn based ethanol as an alternative fuel source, and what he writes doesn’t offer us too many surprises. However he did write (or the article was edited) in such a way that produces some interesting characteristics about what is revealed, and what stays concealed, (intentional or not) especially, or I mean “exactly” in these kind of “political/policy” issues.

From todays article on the ethanol bio-fuel boom, we learn very little about corn subsidies in the US for big agriculture. In addition the article is perhaps also misleading when it mentions that the ethanol boom is “eating our dinners” (16). Crenshaw does however clearly mention that the efficiency of ethanol is SIGNIFICANTLY LESS than the efficiency of petroleum-gasoline, but the logic of making less efficent fuel than the fuel you are trying to replace is never questioned. The article also acknowledges plainly that “making ethanol is so profitable.”

But nowhere in the article does it mention transgenic seeds nor genetic engineering technology, nor are any big agriculture companies and lobbies named, nor are any policy writing organizations mentioned by individual or group name.

And check out this tantalizing piece of non-clarifying description about rising prices, corn subsidy and motivations behind the “phenomenon” of the movement behind free trade:

“Iowa, the nation’s top corn-producing state, is projected to have so
many ethanol plants by 2008 it could easily find itself importing corn in order to feed them. (new paragraph) But that depends on the Invisible Hand.(my ephasis) Making ethanol is profitable when oil is costly and corn is cheap. And the 51 cent-a-gallon federal subsidy doesn’t hurt. But oil prices are off from last year’s peaks and corn has doubled in price over the past year, from about $2 to $4 a bushel, thanks mostly to demand from ethanol producers.”

They just say it like that, “but that depends on the Invisible Hand…” In this article, it was written “Invisible Hand” with “I¨and “H” capitalized like a proper noun. Is this a mistake or is there something more behind this?

And the next paragraph we find a brief mention toward the tortilla scam in Mexico…

“High corn prices are causing social unrest in Mexico, where the
government has tried to mollify angry consumers by slapping price controls on tortillas. Lester R. Brown, president of the Earth Policy Institute, predicts food riots in other major corn-importing countries if something isn’t done.”

“If something isn’t done..”. And what is it that is being done? And who is doing it? “The government tries to mollify angry consumers” after what happened? Of course there is no mention of the HUGE deals between Mexico and the US to import millions of tons of (duty-free)transnsgenic corn into Mexico (17) as part of the “solution” to alleviate the rising prices of WHITE CORN in Mexico.

(Oh and BTW in case you haven’t seen it mentioned anywhere, ethanol is made with YELLOW CORN (18), and yet somehow concealed somewhere the price of white corn in Mexico is fixed to the international price of yellow corn (19), because could you please tell me again, WHY..???

…And then in the following paragraph we find a little treat you don’t see in print very often. Getting to read about all the corn we ingest without knowing it, (yay!) everyday, but of course without mentioning the corn subsidies that make all this possible:

“U.S. consumers will soon feel the effects of high corn prices as well, if they haven’t already, because virtually everything Americans put in their mouths starts as corn. There’s corn flakes (20), corn chips, corn nuts, and hundreds of other processed foods that don’t even have the word corn in them(21). There’s corn in the occasional pint of beer and shot of whisky. And don’t forget high fructose corn syrup, a sweetener that is added to soft drinks, baked goods, candy and a lot of things that aren’t even sweet.” (22)

In a minute of investigation I googled “ethanol” and “invisible hand” and came up with this article providing more minimally satisfying descriptions of corn subsidization:

There Are Big Problems With Ethanol, Namely Corn Supply

From Igor Greenwald, March 9th 2007:

“The end result is that corn, traditionally America’s most abundant natural resource, has turned into the focus of a scarcity scare, with futures prices nearly doubling, in just eight months. So taxpayers end up subsidizing this folly thrice: Once in federal payments to corn producers that totaled almost $9 billion last year, again in a tax credit of 51 cents per gallon for ethanol producers and a third time in the supermarket checkout line.”

SO TO STOP FOR TODAY, If nothing more this survey of questions and readings are also an invitation to put together some information with the end goal to compile something educational, simple and clear: What? Who knows? Fotonovelas? Kids literature? Decentralized education talleres? Downloadable pdfs, external blogs with links to wikis? Unique entries in wiki, like Mexico-US Tortilla scam of 2007, etc… ?

** I have yet to include the 20+ references, PS,  Any suggestions or help would be greatly appreciated.



The Environmental Working Group’s Farm Subsidy Database

A text on rising tortilla prices in Mexico:
Big Biotech is Forcing Farmers to Buy GMO Seeds: The Plot Against Mexican Corn
by John Ross, from last month at counterpunch,org:

Institute for Agriculture and Trade Policy

(Wikipedia has nothing much to offer so far over corn subsidy. The agriculture subsidy articles are unsatisfyingly “neutral” and abstract) (24).

from reddit, a charted discussion of ethanol and the invisible hand, “Ethanol and the law of unintended consequences.”

also from Wikipedia, on the “invisible hand“. The entry quotes Noam Chomsky commenting on the misrepresentation of the original Adam Smith metaphor.

And there is a much more reduced definition of invisible hand from economic terms at

“A term used by Adam Smith to describe his belief that individuals seeking their economic self-interest actually benefit society more than they would if they tried to benefit society directly. The statement “What’s good for the country is good for General Motors, and vice versa” expresses essentially the same belief.”

And a search on corn subsidy turned up an article in the Christian Science Monitor by Michael Pollan, the author of “The Botany of Desire”:

And “The stupidest federal subsidy” from, describing in some depth the inefficiency of using ethanol as alternative fuel: on ethanol inefficiency: corn ethanol production and efficiency, also:

And various links about agriculture subsidy from the Washington Post, which I haven’t looked at carefully yet:

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Big Biotech is Forcing Farmers to Buy GMO Seeds

March 3, 2007 at 7:38 am (agriculture, farmers, food, mexico, neo-liberalism)

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The war against war metaphors

March 3, 2007 at 7:30 am (language, science)

The war against war metaphors
The age-old practice may harm both science and scientists

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